I long for consistency!

I am a very consistent person. I do not fly by the seat of my pants; I plan. This is one of the biggest challenges that I am having to face being a mom. Before I was a mom, I knew exactly what would happen every day. I knew that when I went to bed, I would be able to stay in bed until I had to get up in the morning (stress I). I knew what I would be doing each day, and my schedule was only dependent upon me.

Now all has changed! I've had to throw my consistency out the window (except when it comes to parenting, and even that at this point is a struggle!). I would love to know each night when I put Olivia to bed that I wouldn't see her until 6 am, and then perhaps be able to sleep until 8 am, and then she'd go for a nap at 10, and then a nap at 2, and then maybe an evening nap. That sounds great! But that isn't O's plan. For 6 weeks she was very consistent about sleep at night--bed around 9, wake up between 5-7, and usually sleep longer after that. No more says O! The last few weeks we have had to throw that out the window--bed time is still consistent, but she started waking at night periodically (luckily soothed only by the nukie), and she has sometimes started waking up at 4, or 6, or 7...who knows. So last night she woke up at 2:45...WIDE awake. Nukie didn't put her back to sleep...she laid and fussed until 3:45 when she started crying (with Ry and I periodically going back in and giving her the nukie). Now, my rule with her waking up at night has always been that I won't feed her until 4 am (she no longer needs to eat at night)...so last night I gave in at 3:45.

Part of me says, "Only 15 minutes--close enough!" The other part of me says, "You've really screwed things up now--she'll be waking every night for some boobie!" I hope I'm right with the first part of me. I'm ready for consistency!!!